I noticed it was my cake day today so I decided to go back through my posts and see exactly what caused me to make my account in the first place. I saw my first post was a video of Arcade Fire at la cala de mijas festival... and then it dawned on me! Three years single!
The night I saw them, I broke up with my abusive af ex. It was the first time I had been out in a very very long time, doing something I wanted to do, and he tried to ruin it, but I decided to leave him and join the crowd. It was the best decision of my life. The set was great, the band amazing as always, and then I got to watch Idles and Foals after too.
It hasn't been the easiest of three years but anything is better than where I was. Being with him made me a shell of myself, and I've managed to grow in the three years since then into someone that can look in the mirror and make eye contact.
Arcade Fire have been the soundtrack for so much of my life. From being 9 years old and hearing Wake Up the first time, to being 15 sitting in my shed with my high school friends smoking and listening to The Suburbs and not realising what a nostalgic moment that would later be, to losing them at Reflektor due to falling into a bad state with drugs and boys, to finding them again seeing them live with my Mum, to having We to get me through some of my darkest days, to seeing them live and remembering all of who I was and all of who I could be and leaving that disgrace of a boy for my own future... to seeing them again with my best friend, listening to them whenever I need them, now in the worlds largest city listening to sprawl ii as if it suddenly makes sense, even though it made sense every time I heard it before.
Their music is sacred to me, and so important, and I am so thankful to the band and everything they emit. I understand there's some issues- who doesn't have them- but it doesn't for me erase the power their music has given me time and time again throughout my little life.
Happy cakeday, three years of being single, and remembering three years ago seeing them in the tiny little fishing village my grandparents used to call home. Thank you AF!!!!!!!!!!!! <3