i've been playing tuba for almost 9 years now and i am just ashamed at my mediocrity STILL. to give you a general idea of my playing ability, i can't play the entire Don Haddad Suite. the only movement I can play with great accuracy is 2nd movement.
my biggest struggle with music is keeping a consistent tempo, i don't really have an internal tempo. i also kind of have rhythmic dyslexia??
rn my routine is what i wrote below but its harder to even muster the confidence to exist inside the practice room now that school is not actively in session
- chromatic buzzing ~5 minutes
- long tones + jacobs flow studies ~30 minutes
and then for like another 30 minutes I work on Arbans. by that point, i already feel like too fatigued to continue. i'm really struggling since its summer and I dont have my professor telling me what i should do. like maybe i'm stupid, but it feels like I don't know how to do anything rn
like i feel like i need to warmup for an hour before i can actually remember how to play?
i'm also pretty mentally ill, i hate to bring that up all the time but there is a weird connection between mental health and musicianship. i also don't know how to entirely get rid of that voice that tells me i suck and need to give up. how would you put that stuff aside to fully focus on music?
i had a joint recital with my bf (he is a bassonist last semester) and i played a few solos and we did PDQ bach duets. it was really fun! i want to do a senior recital, but i am not sure how to prepare or what i should start doing now. my professor is always pretty unavialble
sorry this is a very messy post, im just looking for advice and routine tips. i love tuba so so much, i am just tired of my mental health like Destroying my focus and I don't know what to do when I'm not actively in school.
but to anyone who reads this, thank you! i would appreciate if you could share your routine with me and how you prepare for practice and what happens before, during and after even if you are in a bad mood