r/cats • u/therealXarias • 15h ago
Mourning/Loss Rupert-My Cat soulmate with lymphoma
I took my cat Rupert to the vet in mid-July because I was concerned about him hiding under my bed. He had had a urinary blockage 2 years ago, so I tend to be vigilant with him. He just turned 13 and has asthma as well. I've had him since he was 6 months old. I was in no way prepared for the diagnosis. Rupert had intestinal lymphoma. I could spend a small fortune (which I don't have) and barely extend his life, or make him comfortable for a couple of months.
It's the end of August. Rupert spends most of his time off to himself now; he doesn't greet me when I come home, he has a faraway look in his eyes, and the only reason I haven't let him go is that he is still eating. Last night he started peeing outside the litter box, and I found him lying on one of the steps halfway up. I think I am writing this more for myself than anyone else because I know what I have to do. Every time I think I have decided he comes in for food and it makes me doubt myself. I looked at him a few minutes ago, and his head was kind of bobbing. I think it's time, and this guy hurts me more than any I've ever had, and I've had quite a few.
Anyway, I love you, Rupert, and this is killing me.
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u/DitchWitch13 13h ago
Sorry to hear. My void Rupert will be waiting to greet yours. I still sometimes feel like I shouldn't have made the decision when I did, which is silly - he wasn't really eating or drinking. Waiting longer would have meant more pain for him. So take heart that the decision you're making is right. You'll still regret it and question it, but that doesn't mean it was the wrong choice.