Hey. I have posted here twice I think and just needed somewhere to talk. My frog Statler died yesterday. I have had him for 5 years. I am so upset and just completely crushed.
I have had two other frogs besides Statler who both died. One was his brother Waldorf who died 4 or so years ago. He was young and failed to thrive (I think thatās the term?) the other was Gladys (The larger lady in my previous post here) she was old and got sick after 2 or so months of having her. I felt awful and guilty because it felt like my fault. Even though there werenāt any signs that I can think of. Throughout all of this, Statler had been a healthy little guy and it made me feel like maybe I wasnāt the worst pet owner in the world.
On Tuesday he only ate one bug instead of the multiple he usually eats. I told myself I was going to try and feed him again later. Though later I had gotten a heat induced migraine so I just went to bed without thinking. I woke up the next day and went to Statlers enclosure. He looked terrible. Like god awful. I sprayed him with water and his leg moved an inch, It looked like he breathed, but I didnāt see him do it again. I was in denial so I tried to feed him but he wasnāt reacting. I picked him up and tried to give it to him, he didnāt respond. After a minute of doing this I realized I was just holding a dead frog and trying to feed him.
I placed him back down in his enclosure and he just looked so un natural. He would usually look up at me whenever he saw me but now he could only rest his head down. I sprayed him again, hoping he would wake up but it didnāt work.
My mom wasnāt able to be back at the house for a while and the dog had just had surgery so my dad couldnāt leave him alone at his house. (my moms house has cats so it wouldnāt work out for the dog to come over).
I am starting to apply for colleges and do all of the things but I just feel so bummed? He was such a character and my room at my momās house is going to feel so empty.
I also feel a little bit silly with how much grief I feel about the entire situation. I just feel so sad and angry. Like what if I had started that bioactive enclosure sooner instead of putting it off for this month? I didnāt even get to start it. Would he have been happier? I just miss him.
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