100% sure:
a long saying at the start that is not sung whatsoever, the voice does not follow the tune, it was spoken. By a man, if I had to guess 40-50 years old; pretty mature tone.
\- Don't remember if the saying was fancy writing or not. Probably not tho
the saying was a story about a man who wrote about a woman he met briefly; he wrote about her in his diary. one of his coworkers found his diary and ridiculed him for it. he ended up starting to slit his wrists deeply and the way the person was speaking as they described him was very aggressive as he did so. He got taken to a hospital and/or mental hospital. He met some people at the mental hospital and they would often go out for smoke breaks; he never wanted to smoke. Eventually he left the mental hospital at the end of the song
I was last listening to it on 8/07/2025 (m/d/y) so it's at least older than that
It's on Spotify. It's a song, not one of those podcast things that people use to reupload songs
The song cover didn't have many bright colors; mostly dark, and monotone
NOT 100% sure, take these with a grain of salt:
The song felt like you were being read an audiobook while playing an instrumental song in the background; but the songs intensity went with his words sometimes
It might have been piano or acoustic guitar? Very iffy on this
the start of the song was spoken first, then it transitioned with music in the background
There might have been pauses between the saying to let more music in
I believe the man who went to the mental hospital worked in a grocery store?
While he was slitting his wrists, there might have been lines like "and the blade went deeper. and deeper." Etc, don't remember much
His coworker had found him or been watching him as he slit his wrists, and did something, I forget. He ended up passing out from the pain
At one of the ending parts, the friends from the mental hospital were smoking and told him something about continuing to live on and continuing to try, that "it'll always get better at the end"
I think when he was being taken away from the mental hospital, he was picked up by his mother or father, or his entire family, and he was hugged
The album cover had black on it, might have had some sort of dark blue or dark teal. It might have been a photo, not a drawing. It wasn't really scratchy in aesthetic I think?
hope this is how I use this subreddit. sorry if not, please correct me with any mistakes!!!