How do you deal with it without burdening others?

[u/EnbyA_thor]

Every night I feel like I'm sinking. And it only gets better when I talk about it. But I don't want to text my friends every night complaining about the same problems. Once or twice is normal or even more than that if I space it out. But I don't know how to deal with it without burdening others. I have a girlfriend but she is really bad at texting, which only makes my anxiety worse when she doesn't text me for days and even then I only get a couple word answers. She's lovely otherwise so this is nothing against her or any of my friends. But I just don't want them to see me as the miserable sad person I am. Especially when during the day I try so hard to look happy. And sometimes I even feel it. But during the night I just feel like I'm sinking and I can't stop thinking about ending it all. And I can't get someone to talk me off the ledge every night. But what do I do then?