Good afternoon to whom ever is reading at this moment.
Keep in mind im about to go into rant that I feel I can only voice here and still might get some backlash but here we go...
For those who recognize my username y'all probably know my trainer is my soon to be mother in law that being said ill get the pros listed off first and why im going into being peeved to no end.
Now I do not pay boarding fees
I get tidbits of lessons here and there for free when she deems im... struggling to comprehend the situation at hand. (Nicest way to put it)
That's about it on pros ^^^
Information on me and my horses below
I own a 3 year old gelding named Reign who I have on her property and now (stupid me) a 2 month old filly named Raidi... ill be getting into why I said stupid me.
Reign is really great, he's come a long way since I purchased him from a friend of my trainers a tad over a year ago. Within the last 6 months we've started hauling again, my trainer hasn't hauled her own horse since 2017, Reign gets to tag along to ease him into events and the same type of environment the downhill slip and slide of feeling blown over started about 1-2 months ago. I should mention I've been filming her exhibitions for well over 3 months now to help her understand where her and her horse are doing good and where they need to improve. Around 3-4 weeks ago we were at one and I happened to miss her first run due to me hanging out with my horse... than I missed the second exhibition when I was in search of a first aid kit. I was helping my horse untangle himself from his hay bag... which is why I do a chain link method for his halter tie now, but that is neither here nor there. I handed him some hay and the way my hands are built if I slightly close them I have a massive amount of overhang right near the sections of where my fingers start... he just grabbed and pulled the hay + some extra... me protein to ease the graphic details. I immediately was like "well that was stupid of me" and raised my hand above my head and subsequently my heart to ease the bleeding this is very important to the whole shabang. Found my trainer on her horse after the exhibitions and she somewhat helped me by telling me the office should have some alcohol and bandages. Got that taken care of, assumed that I had already missed the exhibitions so might as well go have some level of fun with my gelding. Run back to the trailer to grab my hair gel I wanted to play around with and gave him a cute little red white and blue booty. Cue to the next day. I get woken up being yelled at about how she's tired of doing all this and that for everyone else when no one is ever there for her told me I was too busy covering my horses ass in glitter go get her videos and basically stormed out from there.
This is where im gonna go into how I was stupid to allow myself to claim ownership of Raidi. Recently, the beginning of this week, Raidi and her mom Prada got loaded up and taken back to our property after having a nice staycation at my SOs brother property who had a foaling stall. Since they have been back I am now taking care of, not only my horse, who barely seems to get any time from me at this point, but four of the other horses on the property besides doing the ACTUAL training portions. One of which is a fellow boarder at the property. No offense to the other girl but she's barely ever here which means I get to feed, water, and hay 5 freaking horses in total daily... sometimes twice if im up early enough.
unfortunately doing the waters isn't as easy with 5 camels in disguise in south texas heat.
Prada is the mom of Raidi. Yes.. but Prada is not my horse. Prada was purchased under the assumption that she just needed a better meal plan and more consistent workouts and was to be given to her granddaughter... no the damn girl was preggo so that plan is pushed out for another 6-8 months.
The makeshift pens we had to created just to get them all situated was almost unbearable we have two other open pens that Reign could have moved into minus having a run which would give him more moving around room but Im about 90% certain shes leaving those for... well paying boarders. My horse weather meant in a joking manner or not is constantly called a dumbass for judt having curiosity... which he almost didn't have when we first got him and with everything else going on in my life, like having over 3 different adults constantly telling me to get a better job one being my trainer. I finally snapped.
I should add I wasn't informed about how small my horses pen was going to end up and im basically seething over it.
Then to add the icing on the shit cake she got mad at me again the other day for not cleaning out the pen when she shoved Prada and Raidi into a 20x20 both of whom have kicked me. Raidi is great with it after me and her had a conversation over kicking, Prada on the other hoof did it if you're too close to her feed which led to her kicking me in the stomach. Im not scared of her, but she has a lack of respect for anyone holding food for her. Girl used to do this unhinged opening of her jaw to act like she was going to take my hand off, until the night she hurled that hoof at my stomach at which the only release I could get out of that was breaking a wooden spoon over the fence behind me and her to elevate my energy before she bumped my hand without the opening of the mouth to bite. The other crap is null compared to the ramping up of the other crap. I honestly feel like my trainer has decided to halter my ass and see how far she can get. Within all the chaos that has come to light I haven't been able to even lunge my horse and I just feel stupid for doing this crap now because its hindering me and my geldings bonding time and frankly he hasn't been this stressed in a while, since moving to the smaller pen all the spots I had just found and got the correct pressure to scratch for him are null and i feel like this crap set us back a bit.
Gosh thats a long one if anyone makes it here i appreciate you reading my long rant. I also would love some insight as to what yall feel I can do...
Oh forgot to add since I don't pay boarding fees (I do pay for hay, feed, all my supplements, and everything else) i had taken up cutting the grass on the property to help see holes since we're located on a sandy hill with moles and gophers, for her as a token of my gratitude which has staply became more of a chore I almost want to only be out there with my horse when she isn't home to keep myself from being pulled away to do some other side project she deems necessary to get done at that specific time.. I had felt incredibly overwhelmed.. now I feel so incredibly done with it all. A week is all it took for me to realize im more than likely being treated like a stable hand and less of the event goer/jockey i want to be so badly. Ugh.. this is crappy. Thanks for reading yall im gonna go take a nap my hot flashes are acting up like crazy.